Thoughts

GRANDMA

Grandma “moved out” this morning to her brother’s place, because there were some misunderstanding between all of us. Initially, my brother was saying that he wanted to rent a place and due to the hefty price tag that comes along with it, i thought it would be nice that my brother and i could share the burden. So, i told him that we can move out together. My mom told us that it was a bad idea because the money would be useful if we can buy a flat instead of renting it bc, there are too many rules and restrictions for renting a flat. my mom came up with an idea to buy the flat using both my grandma’s and my brother’s. However, the idea was denied by the property agent the reason being my brother is not of age.

I believe my mom was feeling distressed about the whole situation and she turned to her mom to talk about the situation. With my grandma’s character, she assumed that both my brother and I are making plans to move away because of her; that she is a burden to us and we are chasing her out from the house. Hmm, old people and their thinking huh? ):< So i tried talking to her last night but we ended up at each other’s throat. And my exact words to her was “we love you very much, and now what you are doing is pushing all of us away, which is not right bc family are supposed to stick together, so do what you want to do!” when i woke up this morning, she was already gone but her stuff are all still here. My eyes are swollen from all last night crying and i feel better this morning. I know we did not do anything wrong as long as we told her that we love her unconditionally and respect her by letting her do what she wants to do. My aunt called and told us that she is crying and i think it is best that we leave her alone for now.

Catch up

CLEOPATRA

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i got the car on Friday night from my aunt. i have been driving around which was fun, although my vertical parking was hilariously bad. Bought my mom to the temple yesterday, and went shopping for awhile before i went over to Alexis’s to spend some time with her. She teared when I saw her as I know she is going through a stressful period now because of finals. I tried to comfort her as much as i can. i drove us to this plain field of grass near her place. I’ve never came or explore this area before. But i was glad we did and found this nice location where I think it is a perfect place to just lie down and stargaze in the night. The moon was perfectly pretty yesterday and the song Cleopatra by The Lumineers was playing from Alex’s phone. The moment was so beautiful that it made me think of him. An hour after that, I sent Alex home and went to meet him for dinner.

He paid for dinner. He held my face with his left hand at the escalator and said “ughhhhhh” because I was annoying him. I was taken aback what he did but I felt I was his last night. We went to the beach, he had ice cream and I laid down on the rocks and stargazed with him. It was about 2am, I drove him back home and I asked him “what are we doing?” and “do you still have feeling for me?” He said he doesn’t know, laughed and said yes, he still does have feelings for me. When he asked me back, I answered him “I like you even more now.” And the drive back was almost silence that I felt so comfortable with him.

I wanted to hug and plant a kiss on his cheek before I dropped him off, but i didn’t.

Celebration

PREPARING FOR CNY

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Preparing for the Chinese New Year. It is in 3 weekends time. That’s my mum (left) and that’s my grandma (right). The only good thing about this festival is that i get monetary gifts and the rest are bad things. Haha! Well, i do think that i loathe CNY lesser now, especially after my great-grandma passed away in 2014. I learnt to appreciate family gatherings more than ever because memories are so precious. When i talk about her, i still get teary over it. 😦 I do think of her every now and then.

Anyway, we are having our reunion dinner earlier this year; this coming weekend, if i am not wrong. Just us, and i think my god-sister is joining us as well. i would really love to have a good meal these days since work is pretty draining and i simply do not have any motivation at all. Now, i have something to look forward to.