GO SOLO?

so, Alex and i set our mind to go to Boracay, Philippines in June. However, with the recent tragedy/chaos that is happening in Philippines made both of us worried about the trip we are going to plan. hence, we had a backup plan which is to go to Gold Coast. the really sad thing is that everything is so pricey over there, which both of us kind of expected. and calculating the total amount we are going to spend, we felt that the money would be well spent in Boracay instead. we decided that we should meet up today to plan but this morning alex fell and she tore her ligament. now, she is advised to not walk with that leg and also, to postpone the trip. ): how unfortunate! we concluded that we should do a staycation instead before her school starts.

the past few days of sleeps had not been good for me, i was staying up late (unexpectedly late) thinking about the trip whether to go to boracay or gold coast. also, drown myself with backpackers and solo traveller stories. felt like my mind was running the treadmill. since, the trip is not happening. i wonder if i should do a solo trip to Siargao Island, in Philippines to learn to surf. apparently, i found a deal on rtwbackpackers that provide accommodation, breakfast, airport transfer? and most importantly, surfing lessons for 8D7N. Is quite pricey but i think is worth it based on the reviews that i have read so far on tripadvisors. I have emailed them to ask for their itinerary so i may able to plan accordingly- if i have decided. I have yet to tell my parents about it and tbh, i have a feeling that they might not allow it.

i have been talking to my colleagues on whether or not to leave my current job, they had been so great and helpful for the past two weeks, especially in reassuring and clarifying my doubts on quitting. the good news is that, i am selected to go to Orlando, Florida, USA in september for work/conference. i have a reason to not quit because of the trip and a project that needed to be submitted for the conference. previously, i mentioned how i might be happier if i quit and how scary it is at the same time. i guess i kind of figured out the whole of being really scared, which was i do not have a concrete plan if i finally quit, i said i wanted to travel but i made no initiative to actually plan for it. and going without a plan in life really make me anxious i realised. i guess i am not the only one, everyone has their insecurity but tbh, i wish one day i could simply do it without a concrete plan. i have planned to stay, and ask for a pay raise for the next financial year..bc company’s policies.

after i set my heart to not quit, i feel good in some ways. even though, i feel that i could do better and just quit and try to go life without a plan. but staying where i am is not really that bad especially my colleagues are all good people to hang out with. also, things i promise myself to do:

  1. read more books
  2. travel or at least staycay every month
  3. run more often/walking as well
  4. be more active such as climbing, swimming, hiking, trekking and diving
  5. perhaps joining boxing and dance classes that i have been thinking about
  6. choose happiness.. always.

I saw this on tumblr and i just got to post it here. ❤

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ben affleck and liv tyler on the set of ‘armageddon’, 1998

UPDATES FOR DIVING @ TIOMAN, MALAYSIA

TIOMAN_DSC1457.JPGI was right. There was no wifi. 6 days with no wifi was splendid. I got tanned & i love how my skin colour look right now. I did a lot of thinking alone, in the night. Made a lot of decision about my life choices as well, things i want to do etc. Felt like a completely different person after these 6 days. I cannot exactly pinpoint what changed in me, perhaps i just got stronger.

Anw, i wrote down notes on my phone bc i wanted to always remember this trip.

DAY 6 @ TIOMAN, MALAYSIA

Is our last night here! We dived 28m deep today. It was so incredible despite the visibility wasn’t optimal. Diving with Sonia was pretty great. She is cool and I really like her. The boat out for our adv. dived was way better than the previous boat ride. I actually had more fun this time round probably because we are more comfortable and the people on board were funny as well. What I really like about diving is that when I could feel the seawater gets cold out of the suddenly as we dive deeper, known as the thermocline. After our boat dive, we went back, had lunch, spent time at the diving centre again and this time longer. We met new friends; Yong and Katherina? And we all had dinner together at the restaurant. Dinner was too filling; stingray, bbq chicken, vegetable and rice. Haha! We spent our night bonding with Bob, Danial, Yong and Katherina, since it was ours and yong’s last night here. It was 10.30PM and we headed back to our room. And we killed a spider (a size about 10 cm?) with an insect repellant and we spent a night with a cockroach, not sure if it is dead. o:

Goodbyes are so bittersweet.

DAY 5 @ TIOMAN, MALAYSIA

We had our advanced open water course started this morning with Faizal (our main instructor). We did navigation with the compass, and semi-perfected our buoyancy control today. Not only that, we learnt to stay afloat 180 degree facing down (head towards sea ground), as well as turns and rolls deep down! It was so fun! I kept swimming away from both W and the instructor because I swam at a faster speed, comparing to them both. I enjoyed diving with Faizal, he made diving safer. After the dive, we went back to our room and prepared ourselves for theory lesson. Then, we made ourselves at home at the diving centre, together with the crew; Faizal, Bob and Danial. Faizal left for family week and tomorrow we will be diving with a freelancer instructor named Sonia. I hope we will be okay! After that, we walked around the jetty, taking photos, talking to strangers and playing with cats until it was time for dinner at 6PM. The clouds were so grey and it was so windy. I loved how it blew my hair to face and I could smell the salt water of the sea. It rained heavily when we were ordering our food at the restaurant. While waiting, both W and I played darts and chatted up with an old couple from Canada? Today’s dinner was good, we had fish with rice, the fish tasted so fresh and delicious. We retreated back to our room early, watched Stoker the movie from my phone after shower. We talked about the movie for awhile before sleep.

DAY 4 @ TIOMAN, MALAYSIA

Boat ride out to house reef was horrible. I was having seasick after the first dive, 18m deep. Second dive was 10m? Before the second dive we had to chill for an hour before heading back down, due to the high nitrogen level in our body. Even after 12 hours, I’m still feeling sick like i am still in the water although I’m lying down on the bed. Met great people on the boat out; people around the world. The experiences they shared on the boat was so surreal and fascinating. It felt like I never really lived my life to the fullest. And yet, they thought about how they never live theirs to the fullest. A guy named Richard told me that i looked beautiful (which was funny because I always looked like shit after a swim). Okay! obviously trying to hit on me. He offered to buy drinks but we lived in the different location in the island, too far away from each other. I would love to get a drink with him despite knowing that it is not going anywhere.

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After the boat dive, we headed back for lunch and nap. At 6PM we prepared ourselves for the night dive with Daniel, the other instructor. The night dive was scary honestly. I panicked a little, but 10 mins into it. I was feeling comfortable until 36 mins later, I suddenly wasn’t doing well because I couldn’t deflate my BCD and was floating back up to the surface. Haha! Danial wasn’t like Faizal, he trusted us with our bouancy skills and that he doesn’t tell us when to deflate or inflate on BCD or our breathing skills. Faizal will always be our best diving instructor but having Daniel for the night dive allowed me to gauge how well I can do if I’m on my own.

This whole trip wasn’t just the best of the best but also an eye opener experience for me.

DAY 3 @ TIOMAN, MALAYSIA

Today’s dive was great. I’m getting used to the breathing technique and i am able to stay calmer now. After the course, we went to floating platform at the middle of the sea during our free time. We snorkelled there and also the entire acceptable area and found ourselves at some high rocks where we plunged ourselves into the sea. W, us, made some friends, but they were communicating in Malay hence i was sitting at one corner enjoying soaking in the sea water and being contented with landscape view myself. Marc, a New Zealander guy we met was really considerate. He was paddling around the sea on his canoe to pick up litter. How nice! We waited for sunset, letted our body absorbed sun while we chatted and allowed ourselves to be left alone with our own thoughts. The whole experience was fabulous and the funny thing is I thought I already had the best trip of my life but THIS! This diving trip topped all of my other overseas experiences!

We headed back for dinner, I had aglio olio w. extra linguine while W had hamburger. The fries was good, I liked how the fries tasted.